Since I haven’t actually done the usual 2011 year reflection, this post will be it.
Knowing me, I forget many things. However, there is 2 months out of the 12 that really hits me hard. The month of Ramadhan and the month of my 2nd sister’s wedding. I learnt about ikhlas and akhlak, and that our prayers, even if we think it’s impossible, insyaAllah it will get answered when the time is deem right by Allah SWT.
I sound like I’m some kid who only started learning how to walk but I think, most of the time, as we grew older each passing second and minutes, we tend to forget to continuously improve and maintain our character, attitude, manners and importantly, our heart.
Malik رحمه الله would narrated that the Messenger of Allah صلى الله عليه وسلم said, “I have been sent to perfect good character.”
[Muwatta, Chapter on Good Character]
عَنْ مَالِك أَنَّهُ قَدْ بَلَغَهُ أَنَّ رَسُولَ اللَّهِ صَلَّى اللَّهُ عَلَيْهِ وَسَلَّمَ قَال بُعِثْتُ لِأُتَمِّمَ حُسْنَ الْأَخْلَاقِ
Nothing can compare my embarrassment of my own attitude. Astaghfirullah. My level of iman was so low thus once I realised all that had happened, I really feel like slapping my face hard. It was my own fault and no one else. I truly deserve it. Alhamdulillah, Allah SWT sedarkan diriku pada hari itu juga dan bukan diberikan balasan pada hari akhirat. Na’udzubillah.
And really, no matter how long one tries to puts us down and step on us, bila Allah SWT menghendaki sesuatu terjadi dan dibukakan pintu hatinya, tiada sesiapa pun yang dapat menghalang. Sesungguhnya aku jauh sekali ingin buruk sangka dan hanya doalah senjataku untuk mendapat kebaikan buat semua. Meskipun cara kelakuannya masih sebegitu terhadap ahli keluargaku namun aku tetap bersyukur. Aku tidak akan berputus asa dan terus berdoa.
Narrated Abu Huraira (
): The Prophet (ﷺ) said, “Richness is not having many possessions. Rather, true richness is the richness of the soul.”
[Sahih Bukhari, Volume 8, Book 76, Number 453]
عَنْ أَبِي هُرَيْرَةَ، عَنِ النَّبِيِّ صلى الله عليه وسلم قَالَ
I have to admit, 2011 isn’t the best of years but still fruitful nevertheless. Alhamdulillah.