Uhibbuka.

 

 

I loved the book I was holding in the photograph. I was enthralled while reading the beginning part of the book, was full of determination reading the middle part of it and at last, I cried till I could cry no more after reading the end of the biography.

I never knew I yearn for him so much, I never knew I wish to be with him in his conquest and I never knew I love him so dearly; till I finished reading the whole book, page by page.

His love for Allah SWT is magnificent. SubhanAllah.

And a few days ago, read an article in ANIS for the month of Rabiulawal / Rabiulakhir 1430H titled ” Melakar cinta Qubbatul Hadra “. Raw pictures never lies and it shows how Masjid an-Nabawi is extremely beautiful and it gives me the calming effect. Alhamdulillah.

A flashback of Mas telling me her experiences while being there came into mind. Such as the masjid floors being truly cooling even though the weather was hot and it tremendously relieved her there and then.

SubhanAllah. It is as though he welcomes her graciously into his masjid without any doubt.

We do not know how he looks, however, just by knowing his personality and characteristics suffices me. Alhamdulillah.

I am grateful, no, extremely grateful to Him for giving me the birthright of a Muslim and being one of the billions of the Prophet PBUH follower. Alhamdulillah!

If you cried even after the video is finished, like me, I welcome you to the club and let us be brothers and sisters because of Allah SWT. =)

Sesungguhnya, dia kekasih Allah.

PS. When the time comes, insyaAllah I will visit you Rasulullah SAW.

It’s My Declaration.

Yesterday’s entry will have a follow up to it on the 3rd April. For now with regards to that, let us just study our butts off and..

Listen to David Cook’s album! =)

I realise I blog too serious therefore, I have every intention to blog about current songs I am in the mood for. Weehooo!

Two or three weeks ago, initially the plan was to buy a book but buying music albums got the best of me. I was tempted to buy albums of Russell Watson, James Morrison, All American Rejects, Lifehouse, Amber Pacific – The Possibility and The Promise album (which costs a whooping 38 bucks!) and many others.

However, my touchy hands grab the huge headphones HMV has and listened to David Cook’s album. I dislike his album cover (his face looks different..) but were extremely attracted to all his songs. Months before, I told myself I will never ever buy his album but I did right after listening to it once. Haha.

Weird.

I am someone who rarely likes listening all songs from the album of a singer/band. Only Amber Pacific and Syamil made it to my list. And now, I have a new collection – David Cook. =)

Mas is even hook to his songs la! Heh heh heh. I thought my favourite is Declaration but.. it is actually his Permanent song. I realise it three days ago on Wednesday in school while listening to Permanent and doing the PR paper.

I was touch. His voice sounds raw and the piano playing compliment each other well. =)

Just to enlighten you, this Permanent song is for his older brother battling with brain cancer. So it is not about love at all.

I am currently watching his live tours on youtube.com and I am excited! The crowd is hyper and loving every second of it! I would love it if I played in front of hundreds of people and they are rocking to my songs. Chey! I am darn full of imaginations!

If ever Amber Pacific (fat chance!) and David Cook comes down to Singapore and perform.. I will definitely go! I will just get Abang Aidil to come along, so he will be the one paying. Hehehe.

Besides David Cook, I have been looking through anoopdog.com, what else but about Anooooooop! =D

I have never missed watching American Idol for Season 8  (Okay, I have once but I have watched all the encore episodes too). I sound like a AI fanatic but no, I am not. It is the only source of entertainment (TV shows) which I have taken a liking to and watch it religiously every week. Most of my time for the week is basically school, prayers, houshehold chores, sleep and (secret meetings with love ones too). =)

Anooooooop! Attracted to his voice when he auditioned and straight away I surfed youtube.com and realised, he is from UNC Clef Hangers! Watched their videos last year but never taken notice much of them. I know they are good so I expected more when Anooooooop is their soloist for certain songs. =)

The first one I watched and will remain as my favourite song pick from Anooooooop with the UNC Clef Hangers. *peace.

Fatt has never heard of Anoooooop and me being me, I introduced him to her. Hahaha. That sounds hilarious, as thought it actally happens! I even ask her to help me find his best picture (since she always manages to find her best favourites’ pictures). Hehe.

Even though he is out, I think he has a chance for the Wildcard Round. Yeah. He can be part of the David Cook club – The AI Wildcard Round Club. Heh. Lame, I know. Sorry. =)

Once he started singing Angel of Mine during the Group 1 performances, all I could think of was, “he sang better with UNC Clef Hangers”. That was it.

I know the vests they were wearing looks too much and heavy with the badges and such. However, as I watched his performance again and again on anoopdog.com, he does sounds good.

Let us just wait for the Wildcard Round ey.

 

 

 

 

 

Interesting. My life revolves around David Cook and Anooooooooop.

Of all things, that I feel.

I never thought what the outcome will be. It did not crossed my mind that it is getting nearer and nearer. All I could think of currently is just how I can progress further. Some has done serious reflections about it and somehow, it got to me.

After that incident, I have never gave much effort to reconcile lest for wishy-washy talk. Some changed and their big picture is worth knowing.

 

 

 

 

Separation’s coming. How are you feeling about that?

Maybe when I know what is in store, I will blog again. To err is human.

Trifle.

Three weeks more to go before “sayonara”. Been an indecisive person these past weeks. It is terrifying and annoying. Well, I have always been fickle-minded. Truly a bad habit. Astaghfirullah hal’aziim.

On the good side, I am left with IEP’s presentation and CDP report before examinations kicks in. Alhamdulillah.

This is the final leg and I will constantly remind myself not to dwell in sins deliberately. I do not wish the ilm I received to be taken away from me again. InsyaAllah. Repeatedly I have caused myself to be swayed easily. MasyaAllah.

The goal I created for myself in Year One will be achieved soon enough. InsyaAllah. Alhamdulillah, I had two years to ‘redeem’ myself and the progression made is realistic. Syukran Al-Wahhab.

Finally decisions has been made yesterday, Alhamdulillah. Now is the time to study PR from page one and revise on PJMS. InsyaAllah I can do it. Amiin.

 

 

 

Side-tracking, some people has a hard time striking balance between emotions and rationality. It is much more harder to comprehend their feelings when they want us to and then shut us out. Everyone makes sacrifices for one another, yet if the mutuality is just not there anymore, why keep hanging on it? People change, yes they do.

Sadly, their minds cannot digest the fact there is a vast and extensive wonders out there in life created by God; which is far exciting than going after each other and “trying” to salvage trust. They just do not see that they are after the problem, not solving the problem.

Are they those people whom He closes their hearts? No matter how hard we stand on beside them and give advices, they just look at us and walk away.

They are the ones beaten by their own desire, and not us. Alhamdulillah.

Sifting through flour.

They say, choose those which is less likeable.

They say, choose those which is useful ahead.

He say, time is always there for me so why do I keep ‘running’ after it.

She say, if I am willing to ‘catch’ stability then be prepared for what is to come.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Between “Hands On, Minds On, Hearts On”, which one of those three is the utmost important?

I know I am able to ‘work’ using my hands, understand what my mind is ’saying’ yet I have no clue ‘where’ my heart lies.

 

 

 

 

 

How do YOU make such decisions?