I feel it.

Have you had the feeling of being unsure or nervous when you step into a mosque?
Or have you felt the warmth and calmness instead? SubhanAllah.

I bet everyone had their fair share of all those feelings. Today for the first time, I stepped into Masjid Darussalam (minus the fact I took the wrong bus and walked on the other side), prayed  Zohor as a congregation and spent an hour more after to ‘waste time’ (meaning: I did my project work silently in the musollah) for the clock to stike 1500 hours and off to meet Ain.

And I realise one thing. For me personally, it is easier to swing by to other mosques not in your neighbourhood.

Why is it so? Hmm.. You know, I know, we know. :)

My first impression of that masjid is that the place was very loud (definitely in a good way). Aunties who just finished their classes, pre-schoolers arriving for religious classes, teasing each other until more than two asatizahs had to tell them to be quiet (darn cute!), Muslims berselawat ke atas Nabi SAW and reciting the Al-Qur’an. I could hear all this right where I was sitting down with my laptop.

Better still, I felt good about all of it. Hehe.

Bam! I thought of a book I finished reading a few weeks back; titled Garden Spells by Sarah Addison Allen. I was reminded of Sydney’s daughter who has the Waverly magic to know where exactly anything belong. The girl will always think in her mind, “I know this is right, the place where it belongs to. I feel it”.

Therefore, I feel it too. Surrounded by people who loves Allah, yearns Him so much and put their utmost faith in Him, their huge love for Rasulullah SAW, the desire for ilm and etcetra. SubhanAllah wabihamdih!

Truthfully, I can now see myself going to that masjid for this three years. Alhamdulillah. Hehe. InsyaAllah diberkati olehNya. Ameen. :)

Bottomline is, lakukanlah ibadah dengan ikhlas, teruslah berusaha dan bertawakkal kepadaNya selalu. Dengan mengingati Allah, hati akan menjadi tenang. ;-)

SubhanAllah! Naik bulu romang bila dengar ni. Hehe.

PS. I am always here, ready to be your listening ear.

3Ps.

So! As it is, I am currently busy but I have to do something which is able to stop me from going berzerk ie. blogging. :)

Updates:

• I’ve got back my Law re-test results. Alhamdulillah! Sadly, it is capped at 50%. Oh well.
• On Sunday, I was a bit kan-chiong ’cause we had to do our individual reflection for presentation the next day whereas, that assignment is to be in hard copy and is to be in pointform  into the slides. In the end on Monday, it was not the presentation day. Waduh! Hmmmmmmmmmm.. Never mind.
• Rushed through our Tutorial 8 (Wirda & I), since we were only given about a week only. Crazy. I’ll post pictures of what we did later. I am a bit proud la I managed to draw those furnitures in one-point perspective. Hehe. 
• For M&D, tak payah tahu la. TAK PERLU. Hehehe. KK.
• What else? Oh ya! The Racial Harmony event at Khatib. I became the photographer. Hehehehe. Best! Da lama tak pegang Canon EOS. Rindu sangat. :D BUT! There was this one uncle uh, I was literally standing next to him with the DSLR on hand and he just pushed me. Like, apa akan! I know I am like THAT short but doing it in front of the MP sungguh tak patut. :( Tapi what ever la kan. At least, the experience is something. :)

Okay, pictures. Two of it only. Heh.

Before. Without drapes, chandeliers and colours.

After. Wirda is such a wonderful colourist. Even though there is mistakes, we gave our best. :)

 

A shout-out to Hana. Jiayou! Selamat bekerja sis. :)

 PS. Have fun doing projects people! Trying to.. Hehe.

1 Syaaban 1430H.

Bismillah.

1. Exactly a month to Ramadan.
2. Exactly a month to term tests and examinations.

I am ESPECIALLY looking forward to #1. :) Knowing that Ramadan is just four weeks away is exciting. Really. As for #2, I should give my very best right? Right. InsyaAllah I can do it well. Ameen. :)

In truth, I have so many hopes for this blessing month of Syaaban. I have got a month to prepare myself mentally and physically. InsyaAllah I can do it. And this year’s first day of Syaaban seems a tad special. You wanna know why? I will tell you, if you bother to continue reading..

I skipped school today and went to Pusara Aman with my siblings. It was my late mother’s turn to have her grave exhumed. Initally I did not want to go as I had school in mind however thinking that I, have only ’seen’ her only through her grave for the past 18 years it deemed fit to take advantage and use this chance to at least ‘accompany’ her 2nd burial.

The last time we came there was a few months ago. I remembered clearly what Mom said before we sat in the car and went home, “Kalau kau nak pergi dan datang sini, Mak galakkan. Tapi pergi dengan Abang Aidil ye..” From then on, I grew a yearning to come by whenever possible but ever since school started, I have forgotten all about it. MasyaAllah.

From 1000 hours to 1130 hours, we stood there watching the grave digger did his job. Alhamdulillah! All Glory be to Allah, everything went smoothly. :) After Zohor, had briefing again for the 2nd burial and off we proceeded to Pusara Abadi. Seeing what ever is left from her grave wrap in white cloth, only Allah knows how I felt. After which, lots of soil were put in place and soon everything was covered properly. The exhumation is a complete success. Alhamdulillah!

Allah SWT made everything easier for all of us today. Syukran Ya Quddus!

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On a different track, I took note of what is happening. Sesungguhnya jikalau ingin melakukan sesutu pekerjaan, buatlah dengan ikhlas dan sempurna. I have learnt my lesson. Melakukan yang terbaik dan memberi segala usaha dengan benar adalah sesuatu yang pandang mulia. I know how you feel right now. Siapa yang tidak marah dan paling kecewa sekiranya kita hendak melakukan kerja dengan baik tetapi yang lain tidak bekerjasama dan akhirnya rasa percaya terus menghilang dan hasil kerja kita tidak berbaloi. Sungguh mereka boleh berbakti dan memberi idea yang sesuai pada saat kita berdiskusi tetapi pada waktu hendak melakukannya secara “hands-on” tidak diberi respons yang memuaskan, kita tenangkan hati, tegur mereka dengan lembut dan ajak mereka ke arah kebersamaan. InsyaAllah dapat dilakukan. You and I have to hold on strong girl. ;)

Mungkin pada saat ini, senang bercakap dari melakukannnya tetapi kita pun harus ingat diri. We have to start with ourselves if we want others to work towards something better right? Kita sebagai manusia penuh dengan kelemahan, penuh dengan kekurangan. Kita cuba naikkan kembali semangat kearah kecermelangan (walaupun sudah sah keputusan model yang kita bina dari mula kurang bagus), tukar fokus pula kepada presentasi pada minggu hadapan. :)

Kita tunjukkan kepada yang lain, kita berdua boleh buat kerja dengan baik dan bagus tanpa mereka (kalau mereka tetap dengan perangai sebegitu). InsyaAllah. :)

PS. Walau apa-apa pun, if either of us panic we still have each other + si manis. Hehe.

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It may seem harsh I typed the above in Malay, but truthfully it is easier this way. Allah knows best.

PS.  I have two more rounds left. I can do it! Ameen. :)

People in the house has been tripping over my laptop wire plug. First it was Fiqri, followed by my Mom and now Abang Aidil. Alamak. Satu keluarga ni eh. Betul ah. Haha. KK.

I’ve every intention to do all my F&C tutorials today. I’m still stuck at the same questions the last time I blog about it. Heh. Reasearching takes hours. Crazy. However, I’ve a different start to the day.

Woke up for Subuh and right after that, Kak Aisah asked for help with her cupcakes. Urgh. I suck at spreading nutella. Seriously. Quoted from her, “Macam mana kau nak kahwin ni La?”. Heh. Fast forward to 11.00am, I’m done doing my IT Illustrator Tutorial 5. Yeay! Soon, I was on Tumblr, YT, Blinkx just to pass time. Crazy. I am so messed up. Tutorials ke mana, television series ke mana.

I’ve to get to work on my M&D project, my D&D project, my EE Reflection Logs (Think more in depth! Reflecting something you’re connected with is easier. Really.) and my F&C tutorials. At least I feel lighter after I’m done with Law re-test last Wednesday. Alhamdulillah.

Oh! I’ve got an event the same day next week. A Racial Harmony event. At Khatib. Yessa. Am going to take pictures (weehoo!) and go do other duties too. Heh. Speaking of Racial Harmony kan.. Someone’s birthday is coming! You know, I know, we all know! =D

However on a depressing note, I bet you knew about the Jakarta bombings. MasyaAllah.. Kk. I shall not talk about it.

Good evening world.

Hindsight? Insight? Foresight?

The past three days, I’ve been thinking alot. About everything. Words running through my mind is better connected to the heart than typing. Is it vulnerability? For now, I’ve no asnwer to it so I’ll just keep on thinking.

Cheers to Love.